I used to be afraid of Kate Kelly

I used to be afraid of having a gay child.

Of psychologists.

Of uncertainty, dissension, and differences.

Of things I didn’t understand.

I used to be afraid.

Now I am afraid of having any child.

Of being alive.

Of being dead.

Of connecting.

Of isolating.

I was influenced to see Kate Kelly as a symbol of narcissism and evil. Now I see a woman.

I was influenced to believe that having a gay child meant choosing heaven or love. Now I see a child.

Someday I will not be afraid of having a child, of living, of dying, of connecting, of isolating.

What will I be afraid of then?